Align My Desires to Match Thy Will

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“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest.”

– Matthew 11:28

JESUS GOD ALMIGHTY! What a week… Holiday festivities, tons of turkey, a Baby shower, Birthday party prep (for an almost 5 year old) and christmas decorating!!! It has been ALOT! A lot of fun, a lot of work, and a lot of human emotions… See that’s what I wanted to talk to you about Papa…

It keeps happening to me – the thought and fear that what I am doing is not enough. I get these urges to do more and more and more.. and that mindset is just plain exhausting and draining – I always end up feeling frustrated and angered at myself.

UGH… Forgive me God, for I have put my ego’s desires before your will for me. I heard you clearly the other day, I was stressed out and caught up in a ego struggle. I reached out to you for guidance and you said –

“My daughter, I have not asked this of you…. You are not doing this to please I, but to please man.”

It froze me, because it was true… I was seeking the approval of others and I had lost sight of your eyes; and that is were confusions slipped in. It would be easy to be angered at myself for the stress caused, but this time, I am not going to do that… This time, I am grateful these human desires surfaced, because now healing can happen.

Papa, I surrender to you my human desires, if they are not aligned with your will for me, remove them from me ; but if any of my desires do honor you, please bring them to my attention so that I may serve my highest good.

I love you Papa, thank you for loving me so hard.

Your daughter, x0

Praise Be to Thee

praise“Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good; his love endures forever. “

– Psalm 118:1

Hey Papa, This world is a buzz with the coming Holiday season… I can feel it in the air, everyone is about to go bat shit crazy over their holidays!!! Christmas music is on, red and green is everywhere, and the chaos is increasing daily. JESUS, Help us all!!!

Don’t get me wrong God, I love to celebrate, and I believe you created us to celebrate and be joyful… But Im pretty sure you didn’t intend for our joy to be centered around the latest toy crazes or fancy electronic gadgets.  Yet, we are human and easily distracted by worldly entertainments. Forgive us papa… But on a more attuned note… Today Papa and all the days ahead of me, remind me that you are the reason for every season. Although, I will partake in the celebrations and enjoy all the sights, sounds and festivities; help me not  tolose sight of you.

Cheers to staying grounded!

Love you Papa, your daughter x0

Holding On Tight

child-holding-fathers-fin-001“Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.

-1 Thessalonians 5:16-18

Oh Papa, I have done it again… I have tried to control the uncontrollable, I have tried to figure out the unknown, and I have called your plans into questioning. As I let fear take over my thoughts, I felt your peace leaving my mind.

Papa, I reach out to you, help me to stay in your peace… Guide me to pray instead of worry and to praise you instead  of groan.

Surrendering papa,trusting your timing and planning.

Love you daughter,

x0

Let Love Be Your Guide

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“When times are good, be happy; but when times are bad, consider this: God has made the one as well as the other. Therefore, no one can discover anything about their future.”-Ecclesiastes 7:14

God, I have seen your good and I have seen the ugly of the world.

I have drowned in sorrow and danced in joy.

I have been disturbed by the chaos of fear and been in awe of your peace.

But Papa, one thing that I know to be true is – that you have been with me through it all.

God, I know there is no telling in what tomorrow brings, but I believe that your love will guide me through the day. When fear is near Papa, please remind me you are there in each breath I take.

Believing in a bright tomorrow..

Love your daughter,
xo

Moon Healing

 

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God, as I admire the beauty and fullness of the moon tonight, I am reminded of the essence of your nature. You papa will not be rushed, nor can your energy be stopped…There are times when you want me to rest, and other times when you want me to create; but times like tonight, I know you want me to release.

Tonight, Papa, I surrender to the vortex of your moon. I surrender to the pull. I am here, feeling, breathing, and being.

I feel your love pouring in me  – it is healing me, restoring me, and divinely connecting me to you, to love.

Thank you Papa for your healing love and your gifts in the sky.

Love your daughter,

Sarah x0

Leave The Light On

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“When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought joy to my soul.” Psalm 94:19

Papa…  are you here with me? Are you here in this world that is so wounded and broken? Are you seeing this? How am I not to fear when all I hear, see and feel is the fear of this world?

Forgive me, God.. I know you want me to trust you and to live with your peace… I am doing my best God… I am grateful that fear only draws me closer to you.. But, I can also feel fear trying to pull my back.

Tonight God, I just feel like I need extra cuddles…. A little extra re-assurance that above all this fear is your purpose… That beyond all these worldly human experiences, there are profoundly spiritual insights. Papa, tonight, can you leave the light on and just hold me tight?

Trusting you God, leaning in and snuggling hardcore!

Your daughter, x0

It is all Meaningless

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“Meaningless! Meaningless!”
    says the Teacher.
“Utterly meaningless!
    Everything is meaningless.”

Ecclesiastes 1:1

God, you know my thoughts and feelings. Lord, I see a country of people who are confused, scared, and seeking Love. They are searching for answers, hoping their fears are not valid, and though man may answer them, only you know the truth.

 Lord, it has been said in your book – ‘Since no one knows the future, who can tell someone else what is to come? (Ecclesiastes 8:7) Please remind your children of this, let them see beyond the great vail of fear, let them find solace in knowing, that no one knows your plans for the future.

God, I have hope that those who awake to this truth,  will also understand you are a good and gracious God that wants his children to Love and have hope for the future. 

Standing in your truth, knowing, the chaos of this world will never shake you. 

Love you Papa God,

Your daughter, Sarah x0

Come Along

“For I know the plans I have for you, ” Declares the Lord. “Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11

 

I have chosen to live my life by God’s design. In this world that is ever changing, we all need to hold on to the universal truths.  For me, I believe we are all children of God, and we are all uniquely designed. I believe all nature unfolds according to the season, and we also bloom in God’s time.

As I venture through this journey of life, I choose to stay grounded in love. I  put my trust in the creator that designed me, you, and this universe. I find hope in the future, for there will be a time when we return to the Love which we came from

I have started this blog to have a place to share my conversations with God and I hope you will follow me as my journey unfolds.

Love to all,

Sarah xo

 

 

 

A Time For Everything

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There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens:” 

-Ecclesiastes 3:1 

I surrender my life to you God.

I ask you, help me to understand and accept that you are master of all.  I hand thyself to you, giving you my mind and body, that you may fill me with your holy spirit.

In times of darkness, I ask, help me to trust and lean on you.  In times of truth and light, I ask, teach me to honor you and share your goodness. In seasons of pain, remind me you are the ultimate healer. In seasons of bliss, show me you are the one orchestrating the symphony. 

I am grateful God to call you master. You are the mighty one. 

And so it is.