“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest.”
– Matthew 11:28
JESUS GOD ALMIGHTY! What a week… Holiday festivities, tons of turkey, a Baby shower, Birthday party prep (for an almost 5 year old) and christmas decorating!!! It has been ALOT! A lot of fun, a lot of work, and a lot of human emotions… See that’s what I wanted to talk to you about Papa…
It keeps happening to me – the thought and fear that what I am doing is not enough. I get these urges to do more and more and more.. and that mindset is just plain exhausting and draining – I always end up feeling frustrated and angered at myself.
UGH… Forgive me God, for I have put my ego’s desires before your will for me. I heard you clearly the other day, I was stressed out and caught up in a ego struggle. I reached out to you for guidance and you said –
“My daughter, I have not asked this of you…. You are not doing this to please I, but to please man.”
It froze me, because it was true… I was seeking the approval of others and I had lost sight of your eyes; and that is were confusions slipped in. It would be easy to be angered at myself for the stress caused, but this time, I am not going to do that… This time, I am grateful these human desires surfaced, because now healing can happen.
Papa, I surrender to you my human desires, if they are not aligned with your will for me, remove them from me ; but if any of my desires do honor you, please bring them to my attention so that I may serve my highest good.
I love you Papa, thank you for loving me so hard.
Your daughter, x0